looking at the bright side, alfonso beat the ever-so arrogant ahmed kaddour, who was, towards the end of the show, was a little more un-arrogant. i found him nice actually because i considered the fact that he knew a little english and even asked sergio mora to read to him a very personal letter. but ultimately, alfonso gomez was still hard to beat. i enjoyed the back-to-back episodes very much--fair games.

until we went to the grocery to buy fruits for tomorrow's grandparents' visit. mei-mei was a total bitch the whole time!!!! she would have tantrums and both denise and i would so hate her until mom would start yakkity-yakking. grrrr. i hate it! so the whole journey home was like hell. mommy was talking NON-STOP. and it's all MEi-Mei's fault.

i just finished answering a really dumb survey. i mean when do you ever ask if somebody knows how to become a vampire? that's really crazy.

honestly, joketime's just a crush but i also miss seeing his face every other day. i mean he became part of my M-W-F routine. now, i have a new routine, in fact it became a DAILY ROUTINE. i bore myself, eat, bore myself, sleep. that's it. you know, what i really don't like about myself in the inside is why i crush on guys who have ALOT of girls/gays(if any) throwing themselves at the boy's feet. the guys who don't have that much people running after them are not exactly the type i'm looking for. they tend to be unattractive to me. but being a "heartthrob" is not what attracts me to the guy. it's just the plain, old physical appearance. most people are born that way and some are very lucky to get the person of their dreams feeling the same way. unfortunately, i'm not one of them. maybe i was able to do that before but now that i'm older it seems different. it became more difficult and it's hard for me. i'm someone who's ready to fall in love anytime. and long ago, i have fallen out. i'm ready to fall back in, with someone new, of course. well i'm thinking i must be in love with love itself, in love with having a boyfriend than in love with a boyfriend. yeah, that must be my problem and i'm making an effort to change that because i know that's bad. and i don't want to be bad.

SALAMAT, TAPOS NA LAHAT NG PROBLEMA KO SA SCHOOL.

...or not. i'm really not sure. i mean i got my deliberation paper that says i passed but i can't stop thinking about my clearance. it turns out i have one missing signature and i think that's for Philosophy. i don't know why i don't have that because i was there the day he signed the clearances and i'm absolutely sure my paper was with him, together with the rest of the class. but i still passed my clearance anyway, having it signed by everyone except the dean. i sure hope they won't notice what i lack there.