Saturday, January 14, 2006

When Confusion Meets Worrying

I was supposed to go on community duty today. My blockmates and I were supposed to meet in the last train station at 7 a.m.. The time I woke up: 7 a.m.. It's hard to try or even imagine to get there as fast as I can when I live in Manila and that's, like, the other end of the world for me. Mommy didn't wake me up, too. She insisted I don't go to school today because I had just gone from a fever. You might get a relapse, she says. I called a blockmate and he told me I hsould go to the school infirmary to secure a medical certificate of my condition while he'll tell the professors in the community that I'll try to be there in the afternoon. The problem is, I could not get a medical certificate from school because fact is, I'm not sick any longer. What more can the physician diagnose other than that I am well? It's just the relapse that both my mom and I are worrying about. Even if I go to the Infirmary right now, what would I say? That I need a medical certificate because I was sick yesterday and that I might just have a relapse today? I'm so confused and worried right now. I'm dressed to go to the community right now; I'm just waiting for their signal to let me go there this afternoon. I'm both confused and worried. Confused because I don't know what the hell I should do. Should I go to the school infirmary and try to ask for a certificate? Should I go straight to the community? Should I call my blockmate and ask him again? or should I just sit here and wait for his sms? I'm worried because I don't know what I should do if I am marked absent for today. Would I have to make it up, pay a fine and do thrice the duty? Would they not allow me ever to go there? Would I be laid-off and join some other group? I'm really worried. I've been worried about all this since I woke up at 7. I haven't slept since although I could have. Confusion and worry just take the best of me right now and it's hard to comprehend what I should really do.

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