Friday, December 22, 2006

Missing Christmas.

It's just 3 days before Christmas and my mind hasn't gone into Christmas-mode yet. It's just that all I can see and hear is nursing. Dammit. Our developing gastrocnemius muscles from going up five floors for three weeks, five days a week.. Or our hearts going on tachycardia from, again, going up to the 5th floor.. Or turning into Cushing's Syndrome patients while eating a normal Mcdonald's lunch.. Or getting used to the suffixes of ACE inhibitors and Beta-Blockers and steroids.
Somehow, hearing these words bring me closer to actually learn to appreciate my course. I still don't fancy it, but I like it better now than before.. Or is it just because I nearly failed my first semester and that out of that fear, I've come to copy each bit of information I can get from my lectures from the first hour we had it. My Gosh, I even write them on a scratch paper and then copy it on my notebook when I get home just so that my writings in my notebook will be clean and not my chicken-scratched writing when I'm in a hurry.
However, I just want to feel Christmas. The cold weather, the nice people, the gifts, the lights, the Christmas trees, the people going to simbang gabi.. I can see all of that or rather I have seen all of that just this week. I've been feeling the cold weather every morning when I wake up at 4a.m. for my morning duty in the Pay hospital and every night just before I go to sleep.. I've been with nice people--my family, my friends.. I've seen gifts under our big Christmas tree.. There are also alot of Christmas lights around the village and in our house.. I have seen people going to church at 5:15 in the morning just when I'm about to go to duty. It has been nice to see and feel those things, but I haven't got the Christmas spirit in me yet. How sad. :(
Maybe it is a sad Christmas.
But I don't want to look at it that way. Christmas should always be fun.. That's why once again, my sisters and I, and now together with GINO will write our Christmas letters.. Or rather construct our creative Christmas letters. Yehey! :) Haha! and how old are we?? It might be the closest to Christmas we'll ever feel until we're all together as one real family like before.
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Today was our last day of school before hibernating for Christmas. Janella and I are planning to get new hamsters. I want to buy another one that looks like Scraps, and Denise and I have been thinking of new names for it and we've got 4, I think? If it's a girl, I could name it Clover, Sugar, or Apple. If it's a guy, I could name it Clover (too!) or Kiro (Don't ask.) I want a cute name, and I'm going to ask Janella to name hers Orange, like she was thinking about a while ago for her big stuffed dog.
The whole batch attended their own shift's case presentation, and it felt like the first time that everyone saw everyone again. People are screaming (?) in excitement, it's so fun. It was the last day before Christmas vacation yet it felt like the first time you've seen all of your friends altogether after months. It's was really fun, considering that I'm not a fan of big crowds.
I sat in on the night shift's case presentation just when they're about to finish it, I wanted to commute with Cess because the last time I saw her was Saturday after my Technical Writing class in UE Recto. That Saturday was also the first time I saw her since I don't even remember when. It's a pretty nice feeling to see my old classmates from my first and second years in college. They're classic. :)

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